The Beginning

Let me begin by saying that this is the first time I have ever blogged.  I don't journal on a regular basis and typically avoid sharing about myself as much as possible.  I have always been this way.  I just don't share.  However, after facing many years of trials, tribulations, and some much needed joys my husband suggested that I share my (our) story.  I must say that I was extremely reluctant at first; almost angry that he would suggest such a thing.  Me?  Share?  What good would that do anybody?  If I shared my story I would lay out for the whole world to see my failures and weaknesses.  People would no longer see me as being strong and "having it together".  I would become completely vulnerable and the truth about who I am would be no longer be hidden.

After a lot of patience, love, and strong nudges from my husband I agreed to share my story with a very select group of people.  Honestly, this group of people did not include a single member of my family.  Although I do believe that my husband talked to his mom.  For me, I wasn't ready to face my family.  I don't know why.  I know they love me no matter what.  Perhaps I felt that it would become too real if they were aware of my situation.   Instead I began by cautiously talking to a few friends here and there.  Asking for prayer, guidance, compassion, and love.  That is what I needed...need.  I then began talking to my family.  You know, I was never frowned at or blamed by my friends and family.  I was never looked down upon to criticized.  Instead I was given the best they had to offer.  I was given their prayers, guidance, compassion, and love.

The more I branched out in sharing my story the more I realized that my story needs to and should be shared.  It needs to be shared so that others know they are not alone.  It needs to be shared to spread awareness.  It needs to be shared so that I can heal.  So, my hope is that this blog will allow me to do just that.

I began typing this first post with every intention of diving right into my story.  But, I realized that my story is so much more than that to me.  My story touches on some very real and heartbreaking issues, blessings beyond measure, and personal growth.  And, it is a story that just keeps on going.  I hope that you will join me!