Just Wait

God is funny. Not like haha funny, funny as in "I know exactly what you need when you need it despite what you think". And, He does. But, this is what's so frustrating to me. There are things that I want...now. There are things that I believe I am ready for...now. There are desires in my heart that want to be fulfilled...now. But, God says, "Nope, not yet. Just wait".

But, I HAVE been waiting. I have been waiting for years. And, while I wait I have been really good. I have read my Bible and gone to church nearly every Sunday. I have increased my prayer time and listen to praise and worship music on a regular basis. I have helped out at church events, talked about my faith, and even posted scripture on my Facebook page. Doesn't this all count for something? Shouldn't I get some kind of great blessing for my faithfulness? And God chuckles, "My silly daughter...just wait". Wait for what? Why God, why do I have to wait? "Just wait".

For the past several weeks I have had a difficult time reading the Bible regularly and even talking to God. I guess I feel sort of used up, and, to be honest, I'm sort of afraid of what He may say. But, the other day while waiting on a client I decided to open up my Bible app in hopes of getting an encouraging word. This is what I read, "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing" - James 1:2-4.

I have mentioned this scripture before in this blog. Funny how God continues to lead me back to this verse. A verse about endurance. What do we need endurance for? Usually something that is going to be hard and take a long time. For me, waiting is both of these things...it's really hard and it feels like it takes forever.

However, this time I really noticed the end of this passage. "And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing". Woah. A perfect result comes from endurance...from waiting. But, that is what I want. I want the perfect result. I want the really good stuff. I really, really do. But, I only wanted it on my terms. I never wanted to wait. I never wanted it to be hard. I just wanted the perfect result without all the messy stuff in the middle.

Thankfully God does know exactly what I need when I need it. God knows that without the wait there is no perfect result. God knows that I need the wait, the endurance, the trial. My faith IS being tested...I will consider it joy. I will just wait.